Who isn’t scared of dying? I certainly am, and perhaps, it is the root of most of my anxiety. I assumed everyone was scared as well. Yet, when I posed this question to my friends and family, many did not seem that worried. In fact, many answered that “everyone dies” and since it is going to happen sooner or later, it is best not to think about it too much.
For most of us, the thought of dying is probably just a passing thought. Recently, I had a bit of a health scare. To be honest, my doctor pretty much told me that there isn’t much to be worried about. However, as an anxious person, even if there is a 1% chance of death, I pretty much think I’m dying. I literally had a big meltdown at my doctor’s office and called my husband sobbing. What if I was really dying? What would I really want to before I died? Maybe I would want to go on a trip. Maybe I would want to follow a crazy childhood dream.
I thought about this question for days and I realized if I found out I was going to die soon, there is probably nothing out of the ordinary I would want to do. I probably would just want to stay put and just spend time with my friends and family. Miraculously, as if the world was listening to me, Keanu Reeve’s video about what he thinks happens after death starting going viral on the internet. He was a guest on Stephen Colbert’s show and was asked the the age-old question of what he thinks happens after we die. His answer was not what everyone expected. He said that “I know that the ones that love us will miss us.” Even Stephen Colbert couldn’t argue with that. In the end, I realized it wasn’t about what “I” wanted to do before I die. What was more important were the memories I left with my loved ones.